Obligatory “woe is me”.
I've been a teacher for 7 years. Currently a middle school teacher in NYC (charter school, not DOE).
Recently have been really struggling at work. Coteacher calls out of work constantly, I'm expected to cover other classes when other teachers call out on a minutes notice, school culture/deans just straight ignore student behavior, and overall students have been becoming more and more rude/disrespectful because they see how the kids with biggest behavior troubles can just walk all over teachers and the entire school with no repercussions.
I've been having dreams about suicide (currently in therapy, there is no threat of this actually happening, just dreams about it), and have no idea what to do with my career if I quit. Currently make about $77k before taxes, my gf and I live together and she makes less than half that. Our rent is $2400 a month before bills, and I just have no idea what to do with myself if I quit this job.
Outside of work, I do some 3D design and game design, but aside from that I feel like I don't have a lot of other skills that translate well to other careers. Feeling kinda doomed, I have no savings (used it all to build back after a fire), no outside financial support, no one to fall back on. Feel like I'm just getting my soul crushed day in and day out, and every day lately is worse than the next.
Not sure what to do, where to look, where to go. If nothing else, getting this all off my chest gave some amount of relief.