I know its all pointless, yet from time to time I'll get sucked back in the rat race really bad, and then next thing I know Im there working extra time in the evening and weekend without pay just to please some VP hoping it opens up new doors for me. Actually, its not exactlt right, I was poundering this the other and I think I came to realize that the reason I keep getting sucked back in isnt even the hope of landing a director position, its actually the idea of being better then the other team managers. I think Im too competitive for my own good, and my superiors know it too damn well they started using it against me. They set up traps they know I can't resist, like they'll show me a shitty script with bad configuration some incompetent in another direction made and be all like “oh thats the best we could get, we're gonna have to work with that I guess… “, and then I'll step right on it, and be like “wtf plz dont use this shit, I'll have my team design something a lot better for you guys”. Its gotten so bad I wont even realize it most time, then at one point I'll end up working on my laptop at 11pm and it will hit me like a ton of brick : “what am I even doing this for?”. I need to find my mojo back, get my balance… that competition spirit is making me too easily exploitable. How do I stop this? How can I remind myself to give less fuck at work? Does anyone have any tips for me?