I joined this apprenticeship 9 months ago and I just feel so depressed here everyday tbh. I cant focus at all just staring at the screen counting down the hours (work in IT). I have an asshole colleague who just criticised any mistake I made including calling mr a fucking idiot in my second week because I didnt understand something that was said.
I am trying to hold on for dear life to finish my apprenticeship and get out but the earliest I could leave is likely another 8 to 9 months. I just feel super depressed here that I just cannot function. Part of me wants to go uni to have a career change to study my passion which is psychology or do a part time counselling course but both are expensive and job prospects are worser than staying in IT.
Im not sure if I am unhappy in IT or just unhappy in this particular job but either way I feel like absolute crap and theres no way out. If I leave my narc mum would insanely judge me and put me down, she uses me for money as shes too lazy to work. But if I stay I fear I will just get worse and worse…
I just really hate this mon to fri lifestyle ahhh.