I have an English degree, despite everyone warning me against it. I was a library assistant, but I recently moved and need a new job. I want to work at the library, and I've applied over ten times, but I don't even get a reply. I have applied to every book store in town, every university, every elementary school that has a listing. I am so exhausted of re-entering the same information over and over. I am broken, and I'm mad, because not even a retailer like Barnes & Noble will email me a rejection.
The only place that's replied is this laser tag job I applied to out of desperation. I have an interview tomorrow. So I'm already bummed this is what a degree gets you, and my mom calls and says I really shouldn't be doing that at my age (30). My sister messages me like, “Have you considered looking at this place or this place?” my husband is the breadwinner but really wants me to work so I'm accomplished or something. I'm just defeated and embarrassed. I'm exhausted. I can't stop crying, and I just feel like everyone expects more of me, and like I should be embarrassed to apply for a job at an arcade.