okay, so looooong story ahead, but-
BACKGROUND:
i work in day services as a caretaker. when COVID-19 came to the states, the day services branch of the company i work for temporarily shut down, and we were all distributed across residences throughout the state.
when i got to the residence i was going to for (and have continued to work for, against my own will), everyone was briefed that i was just a temp – mainly because i'm not a CNA, and all other employees in this residence are CNAs or nurses. i was supposed to leave when day services reopened; day services reopened, but the residence had scheduled me months in advance. i stayed on bc i needed the money.
it's been over a year since i was supposed to leave, and in that time, i've had multiple infractions against the company, depending on who you ask. i was framed for narcotics theft, and was told to turn myself into the police and surrender my position – i did both, and they still kept me on, but as a “high risk” employee. i was also under suspicion for violating another employee's religious beliefs bc i look like i've had plastic surgery done, which goes against her religion. i haven't had plastic surgery done, but i can understand why someone would look at me and think that, which brings me to…
in my short time at this job site, i've been sexually-harassed literally within an inch of my life. on multiple occasions, i have harmed myself or considered killing myself over the violent, obscene comments and actions people have made against me at this place. i've made reports to HR, and HR effectively told me i was misreading the situation. i've had a client literally try to rape me, on multiple occasions – but i'm the one that's wrong.
come to find out, i'm replacing a previous staff member who had walked for the exact same reason: a client had tried to rape her, and she was blamed for not wearing a wedding ring to signal that she was unavailable (jewelry was against her religion, and also nobody should have to wear a wedding ring to not be raped). she and i have very similar pear-shaped builds, so everything they said against her is also being held against me for receiving the exact same treatment.
i've told the job site i'm leaving, but at the same time i'm the only one here that gets any work done. and, as a caretaker, these are literally people's lives. if i leave, somebody's gonna die – so everyone knows i can't leave.
so fast-forward to…
PRESENT DAY:
instead of leaving, i asked the manager – who is not my real boss, because i am not considered a regular employee here, i'm just a very long-term temp – if i could cut my hours. she said yes.
when i checked the new schedule, not only did she give me more hours than before, she also specifically put me on a shift that is actually 7 hours longer than the shift that she said she was going to give me, and then placed two of those shifts back-to-back – but she spread it out in a different way, so i'm supposed to think i'm working less. i know i'm not working less.
i've also seen an updated copy of the staff list, and i've got a promotion!!… in title only. usually, staff lists have the name of my actual job site on them, but now i'm listed alongside everyone else here as a permanent employee. again, the exact opposite of what i asked her.
i'm probably wrong for complaining, maybe i'm just being a big stupid crybaby, but like… this job's straight-up gonna make me kill myself. all day, i just get touched and harassed and jerked off on and people try to grab my junk or slap my ass and honestly, i'm a 4-time rape survivor with severe PTSD. yeah, i'm like doing shit about that, but the shit i go through would make anyone crack, not just someone with my history. and i feel like they're forcing me to eventually explain why i'm so bothered by my treatment here, which i really don't wanna do. everyone thought that me reporting the client that tried to rape me was extreme – everyone wants an answer as to why i'm so extreme. i don't want what i was told was gonna be a temp job to know the explicit details of why i have PTSD or how it impacts my life.
i'm sorry if this is scrambled, i just needed somewhere to dump my thoughts. again, i could be wrong about all of this. i dunno. but thank you anyways for listening. :')
EDIT: i shoulda prefaced with this, this is my first time posting here!! i'm being downvoted so i'm guessing i broke an important rule, & i'm sorry about that!! lemme know what i did & i can fix it.