I live in Australia for reference.
I’m a 26yo woman and I can’t drive. Driving causes me great anxiety and scares the crap out of me. Plus I am struggling with depression and I’m genuinely afraid that if I could drive I’d drive myself off a cliff or into a tree.
This has never really been a problem for me. I have always lived in places with readily accessible public transport, which I have continued to use even after becoming disabled. On days where I can’t stomach the bus, I am happy to pay for an Uber.
I got hired at a shop as a Christmas casual last year in September. They knew from the start that I used public transport to get around. 3 out of the 4 of us hired caught buses to and from work. No problems. During the lead up to Christmas, one of the senior keyholders got another job and left. Which meant that someone needed to be made keyholder. The only one of us who could drive was given that responsibility. We were told it was because he could drive. I didn’t much care at the time, despite really wanting to become a keyholder. Despite everything, I actually kinda like this job.
Since then, our assistant manager has gone on maternity leave, our manager and one other senior have left, and the last senior left who isn’t the one that was made keyholder at Christmas is having his last shift this week. Which means we need more keyholders. I was excited by this prospect because the other casual, made keyholder at Christmas and acting assistant manager in March (a story for another time) told me that he wanted me to be keyholder, that he knew how badly I wanted it and that I would be good at it. I let myself get exited.
That was stupid.
My roommate (who was one of the other Christmas casuals hired) came home from a shift today and informed me that the other casual was in the process of getting a car, and would have one by next week. They also told me that acting ASM had told them he had submitted his recommendation for keyholder. He has made it clear since we were all hired that he significantly favours this other causal, and now that he has a car, I am almost certain that he will be the one to get keyholder. I am devastated. I wanted this so badly. I know that nothing is set in stone yet but I’m also not silly enough to act like I don’t know how this goes.
Acting ASM has always treated me like I’m lesser because I am a woman. He thinks that because he is a gay man he is exempt from misogyny. I hate him. But I want to keep this job, because I’ve wanted to work in this store for most of my life. But I don’t know what to do. I guess this is more of a vent post than anything, but I am just so disenchanted with the entire idea of working. Thanks for listening. Sorry if this jumps around a lot, I’m still very upset with everything.