I can’t get a job in Michigan, what am I supposed to do?

I'm tired of surviving and struggling in this world. All the pain and effort I put in for nothing. I just want to die. I want a normal life. I want to feel like I'm making progress for three years of trying to find a job and I'm alone and alone in searching and I've been trying. And if I get suspended again I'm giving up on reddit as a whole since that means there are bullies in the staff