I never worked that long in a day before. I'd usually do 3h-6h a day, and even with so few hours, my mental health would be shit and I once had an elaborate plan on how to kill myself. But I didn't get through it obviously, I quit the job as a last attempt to keep myself alive.
But now, I'm trying to work normally since I need to pay the bills. And I'm devastated that I'm exactly in the same mindset. I left work and I was hoping a car would hit me so I can die. I'm certain I will not last for long if this what my entire future would look like.
I HATE CAPITALISM