Hey guys, I started a new job today, basically a glorified call centre, but it’s fine. The pay isn’t great but it’s fine. The hours aren’t great but it’s fine. It’s 5 days a week. Minimal holiday and it’s all eh. But I’m just kinda hopeless? Like is this what my life is meant to be? I became unemployed in January and only applied for jobs I knew would be good for my soul and nothing came from it for months. Once I applied for unemployment benefit last month I suddenly got the most menial roles taking an interest because I need to pay the bills now.
I don’t know what I’m trying to achieve with this post but there was a moment during my training today where I realised what my job is going to be and I genuinely thought about and considered going home and un-aliving myself this evening. I can’t quit, I need the money and I’m still applying for things that excite me but NOTHING I want comes back to me. Don’t know how both my parents did this for decades.