Im in a predicament
I cant find work that i feel is worth doing (not serving some apathetic money grubbing manager that cares more about appearances than actual societal effects while convincing themselves they do care by seeing all the happy customers with smiles plastered on their faces or simply ignoring immorality as a necessary expense to justify the ends)
But i cant afford rent, my parents refuse to house me, and i cant afford to be homeless when i need medications for my gender.
Basically, im tied to the system with no way out, if i want to live as myself. Sounds pathetic, kindof is. But the system is cold and only pretends to care, if you can pay. They can feel they actually care but deep down they know theyre partially lying to themselves, if theyre even aware and self reflective enough of this. And lying to yourself makes life less real, believe it or not.
So i cant get a job i want, i dont have the confidence and turn a blind eye energy to do my manufactured dreams, and a cmunist society feels impossible because so much of the built up world is designed to support this soulless entity we call wage labour, and we arent about to tear that down, are we. Meanwhile we just accept that the “leader” of this subreddit was unfit for duty because “theyre an autist without conviction”. Well, whatever.
I dont even trust the system to allow this post to be seen clearly. They filter our posts, and we just accept this as the way it is. Reddit is adopting more of that fake sheen for data collection and social control, not less. If you cant beat them, join them? Youll always be subservient, though. Really is a bad kingdom.
So back to my own issues, if you will. Im not getting paid a cent even though billionaires are willing to interact with me and mock me. And crowd fundi g would go nowhere cos why should it? Others dont have money to spare either. I have to get a job if i want a roof over my head. Renting is crazy because the money spent just goes straight to the caretakers and landlowners, some of whom do harder work than others. My grandpa was a caretaker landlord and he constantly was working hard for the building he maintained. Rent still doesnt go towards ownership, which makes it kindof insane.
My parents are vegging out to tv, to famous people that get paid more than we will ever hope to see in our lives, and their response to everything is that i overthink it and make myself depressed. Because change is futile. Accept defeat or join the con, co ners are 2nd order volition style intelligent. Theyll take and promote my own material without me for their own gain. Who cares. They do(nt). Thats life, kill yourself or join in on the “fun”.
My parents are making ends meet for themselves but cant afford to shelter me anymore when i cant pay rent (which is this month, but theyre willing to pay while forcing me to get a job. They should be retired at this age but clearly they werent open enough and smart enough for real stocks instead of the measly options some of their employers offered. Sucks to suck, right?)
So here i am, living it up in my building with thin walls. Its an old building but the walls and ceiling are still quite thin (read: cost effective) so i hear my neighbors more than i would like. And no, i haven't got to know them. The internet age has emboldened me to be hyper individualized while being a cog in the machine, to wax cliché rabble rousing poetically hopeless.
So, time to join the workforce, I guess. Its been fun, pretending we have had an effect. Unions are cool i guess, but they cause problems while solving problems. Amazing that people on the bottom like us are so easily placated. Amazon will fire and union bust but if it just gave better wages. The bare minimum of human decency, we would shut up and continue working for them, wouldnt we. Because real bloody revolution aint erican anymore. We need to preserve and cherish what we have built as a country. I look forward to cheering on the amazing service of ceos and stars that will be in tin cans experiencing zero gravity. Oh wait that already happened.
Shut er down, reddit. Antiwork doesnt need artificial inflation anymore, but society? Well, maybe those billionaires can get to a trill, and the working man will suicide en masse. Maybe covid really was a psy-op, huh? Well, their lips are sealed anyway.