I feel hopeless a lot these days, I don't want to work anymore. I dont want to deal with the nagging of my co manager anymore and I have so much responsibility pushed on me. I could get another job but i bet there isn't going to be a good job for me anywhere like the one i already have. Dispite some pressure and lesser pay. And yeah I don't get paid enough. I just got scammed almost $40 to, and I am so embarrassed that I was stupid enough to let that happen to me. I tried doing certain pictures for money but it made me feel to icky and men scare me. I think about death a lot because there might not be much suffering as life but I also don't want to die either.. why can't I just simply exist