I am truly burnt out… I just didn’t know how to face this fact, but I am 🥲
My boss knows I’m struggling and rly have a lot on my plate. But she told me and my old manager are planning for me to pick up on some new things. I guess it’s in lieu of my old manager’s maternity.
Yes it’s good exposure but damn. How much more of myself am I supposed to give? (I can work until 11pm, 12am easily and still barely making a dent to my work/back log) Just how much more is enough? If I’m already struggling then I don’t want to imagine the amount of work I’ll have to deal with down the road.
Is the mental stress even worth it anymore? I no longer have the capacity to read, to get through my skincare at night… to do anything productive after work at all actually. I just want to do nothing, I do NOT want to use my brain at all. Is it even supposed to be this way?
I feel extremely, extremely conflicted. Extremely. I know how shorthanded we are as we are a small team. more so when my old manager goes on maternity but I really cannot take it anymore.
I am waiting on an official job offer but can’t help to feel like an asshole for wanting to leave after only 2 years. I also just got a double promotion after only being promoted last September. My boss is also keen to develop me even further…