My whole life I was working very hard and I put myself under a lot of pressure because I thought “I wouldn’t make it” or never even have a career at all. I finished high school with good grades, studied and even though I often felt like I’m not good enough I graduated with good grades. I gained my first working experience overseas, and when I returned to my home country, I made my masters to get more specification. Scored a job a few months later in a company that I thought matches my ideal: its as sustainable as it gets in this day and age, doesn’t belong to a mega corporate and is very LGBTQAI+ friendly.
For the first two months,my boss didn’t pay me the salary we’d agreed on when I was employed. In fact it was 400€ less than that. The(original) salary is average for my city but low to begin with. I had to move cities for the job and the new rental contract is around 60% of my paycheck.
I’ll hardly get anything cheaper tbh. I work 40h a week and I’m losing my creativity because I constantly focus on things that I normally don’t care about or don’t like to do. I have no time to be myself anymore or do anything to relax. (Long distance relationship so no time on the weekends) The colleague responsible for my training is quite unfriendly and difficult to deal with. My friends start telling me how depressed I seem. I stood up for myself and pressed my boss into paying me immediately what we agreed on in the first place but still all I can think of is how I can get out of this hell ASAP. I wanna work self employed/ freelance but I have no savings and the social security system in my country could easily get me bankrupt. I feel so trapped.