Excuse the long post.
I snapped. After about 5 years of working for this man, I snapped and funnily enough it was all over a microwave.
I’ve worked my ass for this person, I was employed by them when they had a call center company, helped them grow and when the rug was pulled out from underneath that company, I was there until the day it died. That’s where the promises started coming in. “I’ll make sure you’re earning £300-500 a week!”
Great! I think to myself, I’ll do just that. That was 2016. It is now 2022. I’ve earned £300 on maybe 3 separate weeks.
My “boss” decided to start another insurance company, to keep a few people in jobs. It’s been nothing but a nightmare. 3 people, 0 profits in 2 years, no pay rise for me (but the few others that work there)
Now you may think, gee OP, sounds like you’re a bit jealous. On one side, I am but please bear in mind that I’m essentially managing this entire operation (aside from getting sales) That’s everything from purchasing data, to invoicing, to IT, to SEO. This list goes on. Not to mention that my “boss” has another company set up and wants me to do all that crap for that company too.
Rant aside, the microwave event, a few days ago, we were clearing out an old office. In that office was a microwave, which was rather rusty inside. I put it on the floor, mentioning to my boss and our other worker (god bless his soul). That was it, he started shouting, “Why is it rusty?!” “That was brought here from my mother’s house, that shouldn’t be rusty!” So, calmy, I told him that I believe its rusty on the inside because it in fact came from the office of the now defunct company he had. Voice still rising, he then says, “Don’t be fucking dumb OP” and for the first time, I bit back, and I fucking bellowed at him. We had a back and forth for 20 minutes, where he made sure to get some extra mental damage in (if that makes sense) “Its only so rusty because my fucking OFFICE MANAGER (me) DOESN’T CLEAN FUCK ALL” etc
So it boiled to the point where he essentially told me to grab my shit and leave and I agreed. This story goes on a lot longer but essentially, I’m still stuck with him. He didn’t apologize, just went and smoked his usual joint and carried on like nothing happened. All I got for a wage this week was £50. That’s not enough to cover my rent and I have no idea what the fuck to do about that.
I’m desperately applying for jobs, but I don’t have the money to quickly move out. I want to get out. I want to finally be able to live my life, move to my girlfriend in Germany. I don’t earn enough to save up and it's not even that much for me to be able to start saving! I don’t have qualifications, despite having a wealth of knowledge.
tl;dr I’m 28 and I’m fucking tired of it all. I’m tired of the constant bullshit higher ups feed you in the hopes you’ll do a few more tasks. I can’t rest, I don’t look after myself enough. Why the FUCK is it so fucking hard to have a job where you’re paid decent, appreciated and still able to live your life? I want out. Fuck you David.