I know this also makes me sound weak (which isn't untrue because I literally lack strength and resilience), but the fact that I already started off my adult life with maladaptive behaviour from traumatic events I couldn't control definitely makes me resent even more this pay-to-win grind that is being alive.
And when you lose work because your casual contract of course means they are gonna opt for offering shifts to someone who is, y'know, competent and stable, those 8 hours get stretched out over weeks.