I'm young. I was working minimum wage at a fast food place for my first ever job. Right off the bat, being thrown around, asked to work longer than my shift, passive aggressiveness from my senior co-workers, customers reprimanding and yelling at me when I don't even know what they're talking about. I felt less then human.
I got a job because I wanted to actually become some-what independent, and have at least a little money to throw around. But it was a mistake. I was barely able to take care of myself before the job. At first, I was optimistic. But as time progressed I was barely able to find motivation for anything, let alone, work. As I fell further and further apart, my hair has become a loss-cause blanket matt and I haven't taken a shower for at least 4 weeks. I don't feel depressed though. I just literally can't muster any motivation to do anything, and can't seem to find a sense of emergency for schoolwork/such. I can't go out and enjoy myself either, I kind of want to, but it feels fine this way too
My parents think I'm lazy and that there was no reason for me to quit. School started again recently and I'm already behind, but everything feels more fine than it should be? I tried so hard to do an assignment, I looked at one and immediately felt overwhelmed, but at the same time like it wouldn't make a difference if I did it, or anything for that matter. sooner than I knew it hours have already passed and i found myself making no progress. i know it's only a matter of time before i'm completely fucked. i wonder if jail would be better than this life. i'm leaving a little out, but i don't know what to say to be honest. i don't even know why i'm here, i just wanted to type something i guess. is this even the right subreddit? sorry