I've been with this company a couple years (including a covid layoff) and then I had to transfer to a different store because I didn't have time to wait for my job that i loved and i finally found where i belong to come back and I capped out on unemployment. I went from being an accomplished welder with a decade of experience to building hydraulic hoses and being treated like a joke. So with that I lacked motivation and struggled getting to work on time off and on for awhile. Got on anti- depressants and anti anxiety meds and it fixed the problem. But i just got rejected for a life changing job within the company because of my tardiness. So usually what happens is after a year your lates drop off like a speeding ticket. So now I feel I should maybe go back to my old job but also might be un-hirable within the company now, and my old job is very world economy driven and I'm scared to get laid off again. I don't really want to waste another year of my life doing this but i don't have a choice. I live in a rural area and I've found all of the shitty soul sucking jobs and there's really no where else to go. I do realize that it's my fault and if I would've just powered through it I wouldn't be in this position. I've let me and my family down and life just kind of sucks right now