I work at a small smoke shop chain. I'd been there since August and honestly had been putting in my all, picking up extra hours, helping out at other stores and just genuinely being a really good employee because I seriously needed the bread.
In October I got word that we'd be moving locations at the end of February due to someone else taking over the lease of the strip mall the smoke shop is located at. Come February, we still have no inventory packed up and no definite location. My other coworkers and even manager speculate that the shop will probably just close and we'll all get laid off. This seems evident by the fact that we are extremely short-staffed yet we've had no new hires this entire month, nor January despite the amount of applications that have been coming in. I tried asking the ROM if we were closing since she would know, but she never ever gave me an actual answer and would work around the question each time.
At this point, I'm fed up and put in my two weeks, every time I come in I'm drained and dread going there, even more so boosted by the fact that I'm gonna be laid off with each closer day and the terrible depressive cycle I've been in the past few weeks.
But today, before my shift, I decided just to not show up again. I'm in a horrible depressive state and can't get myself to do it. I was the only person working tonight meaning the ROM will have to come in for the rest of my shifts.
I feel so guilty though, I wish it would go away. The company doesn't care about me, and neither do my managers, but I made the horrible mistake of becoming “friends” with them (i.e. I was the star employee and they liked me when I worked, but God forbid I ever try to take a day off, because Oh, they're sooo short staffed!) so now I feel this awful guilt. Like it's terrible.
Has anyone dealt with this? I know walking out (so to speak) is not the most mature thing to do, but I am so drained and mentally exhausted. I just want the feeling to go away.