I'm so fucking tired of this. In order to survive, you are forced to work or face the consequences. I've talked to therapists before that didn't understand how bad off I was. Family thinks I'm lazy and won't emotionally support me. I just wish I could paint dog portraits all day and sustain myself on that. That's how fed up of work I am. I'd rather eat beans and rice and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches if it meant not waking up daily just to work my life away. I don't understand how people do this their whole life and not see how much they're being scammed. The US job market is like a giant used car lot and it's like the devil is the salesman. You work in exchange for your soul.