Its just frustrating that we hold so much power but cant utilize it. Im at the point where suicide seems to be my only option. I have kids I love so much but i simply can't care for them. My story is kind of tragic. It would be long. But basically after years of rape and abuse, trying to better myself with college and family im in so much debt I cant get a mortgage. My baby dad who has choked me unconscious 3 times and abused me in ways I cant say who I kicked out but let come visit because we just had a baby while separated. I filed for help and we had all of a sudden health care food and help! Red flag for the county we had a baby while not living together and we are being investigated. Because I let him stay here with our kids were going to lose medicine and food. Preschool for my sweet intelligent baby boy its 350 a week. I cant afford to get away from my abusive ex. I cant afford to care for my kids. I cant afford to live.