I abruptly lost my job months ago due to some absolute bullshit. I want to be cross but I was taken advantage of there and being mistreated due to my boss's stubborness and ego, so I'm glad I'm out. But going from $$$ to nothing has taken such a big toll on me that I wasn't ready for. I can no longer even afford to feed myself anything other than instant noodles. I can't dip into my savings, I can't help out with bills anymore, and I'm tired of being marked a freeloader when I'm doing everything I possibly fucking can.
I've applied to every open position possible, on Indeed, LinkedIn, ziprecruiter, even contacting employers directly, even ones where I know Jack shit about what I'll be doing until I get there because they say they're urgently hiring anybody no experience needed. A lot of jobs I can't apply to because I don't have a car and I get that, but cars cost money. And money costs a job. And Jobs cost a car, and if I don't have a car to get to the job I need money for what else can possibly be expected of me. I'm even begging my friends to recommend me to their employers. I can't stand sitting around anymore. For once in my life I WANT to fucking work and I get denied the opportunity again and again and again. Full time, part time, seasonal, fucking whatever it doesn't matter. I either don't meet the incredibly specific qualifications or I'm just ignored altogether after I get the notification that my application is read.
I want to visit my significant other in the states, but I can't even scrape together a measley $160 to pay the passport application fee because every last dime I make at this point goes to keeping me sane. I'm lucky I live in Canada because my health problems would have probably been my downfall.