I’m on my current position for half a year. When starting my job I had 9 days of ‘training’ because the last person left there also left the team. Should’ve been a red flag. I started anyway cause it’s a management position and my first job after college. One month in another worker joins the team. Same month my boss gets terribly sick. Still tries to manage anything from home despite being on the edge of surviving – does not help to provide a stand-in whatsoever.
Since then me and the other newbie keep the system going. All the weight is on my shoulders and I can’t handle it anymore. Every month I asked for support but nothing happened. Last week I told CEO that I’m exhausted and think about quitting. Suddenly another position in the team will be advertised. But I physically can’t anymore. I’m feel like a nervous ball full of ants. I’m turning in my two weeks notice next week and will be free by end of march. I’m super scared because I have a hard time standing up for myself but as longer as I think about it the more I see that I’m already far beyond what I should’ve given for the job.
When I’m going everything will go down the drain.
I feel terribly guilty for it and the next two weeks will be shit for me because of the anxiety that kicks in but:
Nobody cares for you. You got to take care of yourself.