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I’m sick of this job already

I have started a new job 3 months ago. The salary turned out to be better than I expected. I actually hold a phd in a different field and I couldn't find a job in my field, not in the academia as well because I don't wanna move to another country for a postdoc. Where I live, it is not possible to find an academic position if there's no postdoc experience in another country. This is my first “real” job after long time in university. I must say that the pay is naturally better than the academia salary but I don't even care about the money anymore. I'm quite heartbroken overall. Most of the people at work are treating me like I'm a piece of shit who doesn't know about anything. There's constant belittling, making fun and looking down. I'm not sure if they are aware of the way they…


I have started a new job 3 months ago. The salary turned out to be better than I expected. I actually hold a phd in a different field and I couldn't find a job in my field, not in the academia as well because I don't wanna move to another country for a postdoc. Where I live, it is not possible to find an academic position if there's no postdoc experience in another country. This is my first “real” job after long time in university. I must say that the pay is naturally better than the academia salary but I don't even care about the money anymore. I'm quite heartbroken overall.

Most of the people at work are treating me like I'm a piece of shit who doesn't know about anything. There's constant belittling, making fun and looking down. I'm not sure if they are aware of the way they treat others. Maybe it's their normal. When I vocalize these bad behavior, I was the one who got yelled at! It seems these workers have been lying to the boss about me doing things I didn't do. And the boss just believed them! How biased they could get… I didn't even get a chance to explain my side of the story.

The boss is doing the same things he's warning me not to do. He would kick my ass if I did some of the things he did…

The company claims to be very progressive and thriving for equality etc. However, there are so many inconsistencies in everything they do. They chose a diversity and equality comittee among themselves including the bosses, one person with green hair and another person who informed others that he is gay. There was no application process, no announcements whether anyone else would be interested. There could be other people who hasn't come out of the closet for instance. Or, I'm an introvert who wants to go to lunch alone and who doesn't really prefer to socialize outside of work hours. However, I have to give a valid reason if I don't want to join such activities.

Basically it is constant ass-licking for their more senior workers and these workers are given full control while the newly employed ones don't even have a chance to tell about their opinions about simple things. I even feel like I'm sabotaged in what I do so their favorite workers would get all the bonuses. I can't believe all these are happening. This is such a reality slap in the face. I'm one if the gears in the system, the matrix.

Every morning I pray that they would fire me so I can get the union's unemployment money. It seems I can't get it if I quit myself. I can't belive after 20+ years in the schools, my job is just sending emails.

P.s. I have lots of negativity in my life atm so please don't critisize me too harsh:/

P.s.2 I marked this post as spoiler because I think this is the spoiler for the work life

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