I’m up rn from one. Jolted me awake after an hour asleep. Probably get another three if I’m lucky. It happens a lot on Monday nights, which is great because I have a mandatory earlier and longer day on Tuesdays for pointless meetings. If I’m really lucky, I also sometimes get it on Friday or Saturday so it can drag me down on the weekends.
I’ve been trying desperately to keep my work at work because it’s a miserable mess of data entry on bad systems, redundant repetitive procedures and rude, disgruntled people. I want out and keep telling myself I need to be well rested so I can search and not have a breakdown before I find something. Instead, I have nightmares regularly where I die at work before I find something else. Or screw up and things get even worse. Or I just continue to fight with the same disorganized processes. Then I go back in exhausted and it’s worse than ever. I’m so tired.