I'll describe myself then my situation
Self: 30 year old woman with diagnosed IBS, sleep apnea and chronic bladder pain. I cannot qualify for disability as neither are recognized as so (although they're mild, they do get in the way of life). As I age, my health just gets worse and I become just a useless sack of flesh and s***. I also live in California and in a county where the only jobs you can find are nursing or retail.
My situation: I am sick of only qualifying for education/teaching jobs as working with students has become mentally exhausting. I worked for a non-profit agency that barely paid minimum wage. I'm just burnt out and I know I can't afford to move out of this state.
My husband is pressuring me to have a good paying job while also wanting a child. That is just not happening; maybe not in this lifetime. He's set financially but I'm not. I wish I could leave him and he can find someone financially compatible BUT I cannot afford to live on my own.
I just hate the thought of working as my own body prevents me from functioning like a normal human being. I don't know what to do anymore…I've contemplated suicide so much this year.