I'm ready now. I wasn't before, but I am now. I don't even really understand how the fuck I got here. I made the mistake of getting my personal life a little too closely involved with my working life, and that makes it hard to let go. I'm still not 100% sure what I'm going to do, but I'm ready to not be here anymore.
I make $12.50 without any benefits to “manage” everything in what I would consider a somewhat hazardous occupation. I'm in charge of a small team of 3-5 people. 15 people have left or been fired in the last 2 years. I worked really well with the most recent guy who's leaving next week, but he's trying to support a family of four on wages similar to mine and he just can't afford to work here. I can't afford to work here.
My boss is verbally abusive when things don't go her way. She has an attitude, thinks she pays us well and we should all be grateful to her. I had to pick up a second job on my one day a week I have off, and she gave me attitude about how it's distracting me from my duties for her job. What I do with my time off is none of her concern and frankly she should be embarrassed that she doesn't pay me a living wage. I texted her a question today, which I try to do oy when I truly don't know, and she basically responded with “I'm too busy, it's your responsibility to figure it out”. I'm sure I'll hear about how I made the wrong decision later. She backtracked on a agreement to give me a room in exchange for working an extra day every week and taking care of the property when she's gone and wants me to pay an exhorbatant amount of rent now. Lesson learned, get that shit in writing.
Anyways, I'm ready now. I'm still scared. I have bills and responsibilities, and I've been trying since September to find a new job without any luck. But I just can't be here anymore. I can't afford it and I'm tired of the long hours and lack of appreciation. I saw a job posting for an interesting job I'm qualified for that would literally double my income and include benefits and guaranteed time off. I'm just concerned about being rejected again I guess.