Basically the title. What was supposed to be a final day at my fast food job with a satisfying exit turned into a shameful sulk away. My manager just berated me and I feel horrible.
However it's part of why I'm leaving, the work environment has been so stressful and toxic, and I always felt like I was going to leave them short staffed no matter the day I chose to leave.
I was actually going to give my two weeks but yesterday one of the other managers texted me off the clock a long paragraph of things I did wrong that he didn't even mention in person before which kinda was the last straw. Mentally I think I wouldn't have handled even another week, I was already thinking about drinking, cutting myself, and even suicidal ideation to numb the pain and stress of the job. This was probably the better option instead of walking out mid shift cussing and yelling or even giving into those self harm behaviors.
Now all I can think about it how badly I screwed over my co workers as I totally forgot the GM was out on vacation and they were short already due to that.
I'm just struggling with guilt and the memory of my manager telling me I was screwing them over.
Just btw I'm going to see a psychiatrist soon, and hopefully a therapist, but until then I have no idea how to deal with these emotions.
Thanks.
Edit: Wow thanks everyone, your encouragement is helping me a lot :). I think I'm starting to realize I need to value myself over any job and doing this was the best thing for me.