I'm just so frustrated and mad and feel so fucking helpless right now.
I graduated college recently and have been on the hunt for a job that pays decently. 20+ has been my minimum which may be a lot to ask for someone with no professional experience (several years in retail as I worked my way through college) but a man's gotta eat and I want to start my career on a good foot. It's been hell on earth. Applying to so many jobs, and getting back those same damn rejection emails time and time again. Until finally, I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I do a weeks worth of research on this company before the first and second interview and they couldn't have gone better. I walk out of there so confident that this will finally be the start and I can stop my ramen college diet. I'll hear back in a few days they said!
One week. Two weeks. And I finally hear back. No. They decided to go with a candidate who has multiple years in private equity. In a entry level finance job. There's nothing more I could've done…at least I feel like that's the case. How can I get a job…start a career if I'm competiting with multi year experienced people for actual entry level work that is already so hard to find? I was so ready to stop looking and just…work. I'm so tired of all of it already I don't even have the energy to cry. Just to curl up at the thought of doing this over and over again until god deigns me worthy of a wage.