18F. I work at a spa where I mostly clean. I've hated every single job I've done so much that I sometimes feel I'd rather die than continue working like this.
My manager has a “””flexible schedule””” which basically means she expects you to be on call far beyond your boundaries, doesn't matter if you had a meeting planned at 4, she'll make you work till 5.30. She constantly comments on things to make me insecure about myself and refuses to use my chosen name. She's shifty about wages and pays significantly less than my other employers.
Today i was doing dishes and her husband commented “sexy gloves” right in front of her which is just… weird? i don't know if it's sexual harassment, but I imagine just makes her even more hell-bent on proving superiority over me.
The only reason i'm doing these jobs is that i don't have a car or a social security number, so i can't easily find work.
I'm really depressed about how much I despise work in general. I hate it so, so, so much. It isn't even that laborious but i feel dead. After an hour of doing mundane tasks, i feel this overwhelming fatigue, it's difficult to even stand up straight, i feel like a zombie even though i don't even have long shifts.
I want to work as a physicist or scientist one day. That's the only environment i know of that i could find myself liking, but i'm afraid it'll just be the same shit no matter where i am, as long as i'm around these “people”.
I don't know what to do