Antiwork

So I have actually been thinking of resigning for some time but it wasn’t the right timing. I got pregnant, took my maternity leave (all 12 weeks) went back to work on a Monday and submitted 4 weeks notice on Tuesday. Although I was one of the senior technicians who knew everything regarding the lab they accepted my resignation effective immediately. 1 tech quit that Saturday before me and another resigned right after me too. It is what it is but to think they wouldn’t have appreciated some transitional help just baffled me.

I’m beyond frustrated. He had quit loads of jobs and is able to get a new one. I have had no luck, have loads of gaps, and short stints at the jobs I did get. Lately I have medical appointments every month that I can do with my schedule. One job I got from a friend that is on the weekends when doctor offices are closed. The another allows me flexible hours to work that I am able to do my appointments. He and my roommates have seen my resume. They say lie on my resume. Find something better that pays better too. They have all lied on their resume to get the jobs they did. I have to explain I have appointments every month. No job would be okay with so many appointments. I feel so frustrated to hear quit. Everyone else is quitting. I don’t have a kid…

I just have NO hire-ability. The idea of putting myself onto a resume makes my skin crawl with all the limitations and reductivism of it. I have an advanced degree and a professional degree and a license in two states and I just can't stand the idea of “going in to work” at a “workplace” or of “being on call” or “getting hired.” It makes me feel dirty, cheap, like somehow they're putting viruses in my breakfast cereal — and my brain. I guess I have skills but I don't want to use them, I'm a total novelty-seeker, gotta be learning something new, I utterly disrespect every product that has ever existed, WTF is wrong with me? Society must have some place for me. I dunno, just whining. Then I see the comments on this sub-reddit about how bad work is, and I'm thinking, “yeah, it's always been that bad,…

And they said “Yea, no problem.” I haven't been able to do this for over a year. I just started this job on Tuesday and will be working eight less hours a week, but still bringing home twice the amount I was at my old place. Paid for everyday the store is closed. Unlimited PTO, free lunches, discounts to all other restos in the group. Free concert tickets, benefits, and a 401k. My old job, which strung me along for a promotion for months and even had the district manager no-show two meetings with me, was very upset that I only gave four days notice. Reap and sow and all of that.

I put in my two weeks since I got a better job offer, but since I'm leaving before the bonus is given out, I will no longer be eligible for it. This sucks since I worked really hard all of last year to meet my sales requirement to be eligible for the bonus. I guess I'll be more careful and read the fine print next time…

Give a man the actual value he provides back to him and he will find ways to go above and beyond to produce results.