And it's not because anyone was mistreating me or anything.
I was offered a summer job at a graphic design company that is responsible for setting up a bunch of newspapers. I was thrilled, excited, and happy to use my education for something related.
Then after just one and a half week I had a mental breakdown over the amount of work and stress. I had underestimated it, this I own up to. I had wanted to work in a newspaper ever since I was a teen and it had been a dream come true. But I realized this kind of environment is too hectic for me. Had this been 10 years ago I would've tried to stick it out and probably run my mental health to the ground from stress. But now, being older and wiser to my own limits and rights, I brought it up myself before it's too late to bring in another substitute for the summer vacations (they tend to start in July for most hires.)
The person I was supposed to sub for did a good job training me, but in the end it just didn't pan out and I'm “on vacation” I guess. But the best part of it all?
The boss was so incredibly kind and understanding. He's been through the same when he was in his 20's, he gets that this is not for everyone and I felt heard and respected. No yelling, no “Try one more day”. He just sat down with me and we had a very nice conversation. I wish all bosses were like this.
I still cried because I felt disappointed that I couldn't live up to the dream I'd had for so many years, but I guess this leaves me open for new things. I tried my dream job and it didn't work out.
I guess I just wanted to share somewhere. I hope it's alright.