I quit my job in August of last year after a serious mental break and a real look around at what this career was doing to me.
For eight months, I've been hustling to find a job but the only offer I got was… for the same thing I was doing before but for slightly more money.
The kicker though is that although I fought tooth and nail for a semi-reasonable shift, I'm now being told that might not be possible and they may be randomly assigned me to another shift like 4 in the morning on weekends. This is not an exaggeration either. It's literally an option.
I told my recruiter that I would quit if I had to work that and now she's trying to pressure me into “trying it for a few weeks, just to see how it goes” and that “it would look great on a resume” (yeah, I'll put those miserable few weeks right up there). This is after I was manipulated into applying in the first place because “some people are having trouble paying bills right now”. But don't worry “everything [they] do is for [me]” and “[they] have a client-first approach” and “[they] really pushed for this pay raise.” Y'all, this is real actual manipulation tactics. This is some abusive relationship, Gone Girl shit.
It hurts because not only is it true, I'm getting desperate to make ends meet but also it's my self-respect on the line. I feel really worn down by the circus of the job hunt and my savings are running dangerously low. But selling my self-worth yet again to be cowed into working another miserable job feels horrible.