I was one of the hardworking and valuable employee, I did all the assigned task perfectly and my boss was impressed and kind of helping me to build my career path by assigning important and critical task to me.
But after the covid hit and we change from office to work from home environment, I started to get lazy and unproductive day by day, eventually I ended up avoiding calls and skipping job. I had been confronted by my boss many time but I just can't get myself up.
Eventually I ghosted the job for more than 8 months till now, there was a project assigned to me before that and I am unable to start doing it till today, everyday I struggle to open the company laptop but I just can't do it, always finding excuse to avoid myself from doing it. I got tensed, sweated, and distracted myself from it.
I thought company going to fire me but they didn't, they just terminate me but I was remain in all their business group, my company email is still there. They are waiting me to recover and go back.
Now I am stuck in the endless spiral of black hole that I cannot escape. I cannot find a new job, i cannot go back without finish my onhand project, i cannot start doing my project for reason that i cant even figure out. I had avoided all my relatives and friends since then. Any suggestions for me.