Hiya!
Short story : Going in for a small shift soon (Pick my clothes up and go after this post) but my boss might be in and might want to talk about the *anxiety freakout* (hidden from customers) i had that forced me to leave work 3 hours earlier a week ago.
Depending on this chat, I may opt to stop working for the company even though I haven't even been with them for 2 months yet.
Because the freakout was foreshadowed. By me. Weeks ago.
I mentioned that I'm not good with evening shifts (People tire. I tire harder because my meds act as stimulants, which when they wear off…it's normal people tire plus a MASSIVE face punch of extreme exhaustion) – instead I was put in for ten hours that day, which includes the awful closing shift where they expect you to do way way way too much shit on your own, timed, and while customers are around (Write-up of it here : https://controlc.com/611a5cbf )
I mentioned my meds too, that longer shifts like ten hours (Which, come on, they're HARD) are exhausting and that I was on a 20h contract (The implication being I'd like to STUDY alongside it and not work for 46 a week. I was put in for over twice my hours due to it being “Inventory week”, but that was 2 days , yet I had 3 ten hour shifts, 1 9 hour shift and…yeah).
So anyway.
That's the short story. We'll see what happens when “the chat” ends. I'm not expecting much good honestly, despite being solid in all other areas (If a bit slow as I'm still sort of new to a few things)
The long story would be what work and work seeking is like for me, a terribly broken and abused person with a past that makes it even harder.
It would be a very long post detailing all the shortcomings and problems faced not just by your average person seeking jobs, but the extra problems people like me deal with that make them look dodgy, a bad idea, that make us get passed over (Even before the past comes to “help” and make it way, way, WAY worse.
Basically, do people want a post like that? Maybe I'm eager to talk about it, IDK. I guess I want to offer that extra input from someone like that, since I don't know if we're represented? Potential advice seeking might also be why I'm asking – there are a lot of considerations, problems and …yeah.
Anyway, clothes on, see if I bump into Boss Man for chats today >.>;