honestly I don’t know how long I can keep going. Sorry if this is just a rant but here I go: I get a credit card at 18 to build my credit up, is going pretty well. I go to university and I don’t have enough money to cover it even with student loans so I take out an extreme amount of my credit just to be able to go to school. Now I live on my own so I have to pay rent, so I’m working close to full time hours. The more I work at my job the more depressed I get, and it’s not a matter of just “getting a new job” cause it’s been a reoccurring thing at almost every job I’ve ever worked at now (save for one that I had to leave – to go to school). When it comes to pay checks it’s not like I can really use any of that money to do the things that capitalism says makes the whole thing worth it cause im stuck either paying for rent, groceries, paying off my credit or saving up for school next year. And honestly I’d be fine with this if I could actually pay off my credit but it always reverts back to the limit for me just trying to do basic things like use the train to get to work, or like ordering a pizza once in a blue moon. Along with that, the fact that I hate working at these jobs makes me feel awful about myself, so many people do these jobs without a complaint and if you don’t like doing them then it feels like society thinks less of you, along with the fact that even when you work them people don’t respect you cause you’re a minimum wage worker even though you’re providing a necessary service. It’s just an endless loop of depression and debt that I can’t end or else I will literally go homeless or die, but it isn’t making me really feel like life is worth living.