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Stuck in a rut

I quit a not so great job suddenly almost 2 months ago. I had no backup plan, no savings. My parents have thankfully helped their 35 year old daughter so I don't lose my house. But I cannot seem to get myself back in the “work force”. I'm so wildly over the idea that in order to actually make a living, I have to basically give up my life. I live in a very rural area so job options are kind of limited. There are plenty of factory jobs, where the money is decent (compared to other options in the area), but you are basically guaranteed to have to work 60ish hours a week. Or, it's gas stations, walmart, or fast food restaurants which barely pay anything… I have to find something. I know I do. I also know my depression isn't helping anything, and I'm in the process of…


I quit a not so great job suddenly almost 2 months ago. I had no backup plan, no savings. My parents have thankfully helped their 35 year old daughter so I don't lose my house. But I cannot seem to get myself back in the “work force”.

I'm so wildly over the idea that in order to actually make a living, I have to basically give up my life.

I live in a very rural area so job options are kind of limited. There are plenty of factory jobs, where the money is decent (compared to other options in the area), but you are basically guaranteed to have to work 60ish hours a week. Or, it's gas stations, walmart, or fast food restaurants which barely pay anything…

I have to find something. I know I do. I also know my depression isn't helping anything, and I'm in the process of weening myself off of my meds, because I no longer have insurance. My parents are already helping with so much I don't want to ask for anymore.

But, I only have a high school degree, and those factory jobs are the vast majority of my previous work experience. I don't want to end up back there. I can't. I feel so stuck and have no clue where to go from here. I've even tried applying for remote jobs but none of them have reached back out to me…

I know I'm probably just going to end up back in one of those factory jobs, working my life away. It's pretty much inevitable and I'm probably just wasting my time trying to fight it. But I so genuinely don't want to end up back there.

I don't even know why I'm posting this TBH. I guess maybe someone here will at least understand. No one else in my life does. Now I'm officially one of those “lazy jobless liberals” that everyone around here complains about. Yay…

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