I moved to another country for approximately 2 years. There were a ton of interesting opportunities for my line of work (specialty coffee barista, not for Starbucks type places* but small independent coffee shops and roasteries) there, and workers were generally more protected than where I'm from. I had two consecutive jobs where I was getting paid what I was supposed to, extra hours as well, extra stuff like commuting costs also being paid, days off and holidays being respected, coworkers and customers became real friends, etc.
I got offered a promotion at my job and, simultaneously another place offered me a similar role for even more money. It was quite amazing.
But something out of my control happened, and I had to move back to my country of origin. Here, my line of work is not even considered, there are no opportunities and I am now confronted by the fact of having to look for a job as a waitress wich is the only thing here I feel my skills can work for. There is nothing wrong about being a waitress, of course, I've also been one for years, but the job is different and just not what I would like to do for a living right now.
Not only that, in my country like in many others if you work in the food service you are basically nothing and most employers can get away eeeaaaasily with wage theft and abuse, besides customers treating you like a servant.
So, I have to look for a job where I know I will most likely be robbed and abused, after knowing what is it to start to thrive in a job I loved. And I am terrified. When I look through job offers I just want to cry and I don't know what to do about it, because there are not many other options.
I studied for my barista career, I worked hard for years, and I'm seeing it going down the drain with no option but to watch.
Is it there something I can do to stop being so negative and scared about it? If I search, I might find something that is not utterly horrible. But I get so sad and angry everytime I try, that I just stop looking after 20 mins.
(*nothing wrong with them, but very different work style)