I can't bring myself to spin my experience into some generic employee ideal that the employer idolizes. It drains me and pains me to keep up this fake personality for the sake of living. And prolonging it while working. It's unnatural and foolish. It's like in school were you are a passing grade student and some other student gives off the vibe of “I'll be your friend only to get a good grade; afterwards, I will not acknowledge you”. I knew long before I got my first job, I'd have a hard time in working life. And parts of the facade personality permeates into your real life too.
I just want to take care of a cat and play Apex. Is that so much to ask?