So it’s my third year in the company, I’m paid 25h per week (850€ a month) with availability hours going from 55 to 62. I’m constantly looking at the schedule because they sometimes change it at 2 am when I start at 11 am or 13 pm and i took the habit of constantly looking at it, I’m getting trashed by my boss, he told a medical emergency I had to all my coworkers. I am constantly tired, sad, i dream of work when anxiety allow me to sleep, I can’t see the end of it and I’m feeling so fucking depressed all the time. I developed bad habits like not cleaning or making myself food, I can’t find motivation to do anything I like even on my days off and, yeah that’s pretty much where I’m at.
Today a coworker of mine handled a 2 weeks medical leave, and since my boss make my manager (who takes a lot of the load off our shoulders) stay at home for months because he won’t pay his overtime, we’re seriously understaffed this week end. I’m scheduled saturday from 9:30 am to midnight, going again at 9:30 sunday.
And so I took a appointment with a doctor. He made me go on a leave until next monday and scheduled me a psychiatric appointment tomorrow morning where it will be decided if they prescribe drugs to me and maybe make my leave longer.
I’m scared of my boss reaction. If my leave is maintained, I will quit at the same time I give him paperwork for my leave but here I have to do a month notice unless he doesn’t want me to (he can sue me if I don’t give him a month). I’m extremely anxious about his reaction tomorrow when he’ll learn that with my leave, he can’t handle the week end (literally can’t).
I know I shouldn’t care, whether he gets mad and trash me verbally but I’m really anxious. In a month top I will leave him behind but, really, I’m scared about conflicts right now. And I don’t know if I made the right call. Maybe I should have sucked it up, I don’t know. Anyone in a similar situation got advices ? Thanks