Two months ago I posted about given added workload in customer service that I loathe. The work is extremely soul sucking and I have mental breakdown everyday, not to mention the weekend work. The added pay was decent and boss keeps her promise that next week a new person will join as CS so next week I don't need to work on CS anymore.
But the effect from 2 months doing CS work took a toll on my mental health. I was paid 2x my salary due to added CS work but I cried when receiving my paychecks thinking I don't want to live like this and I don't think being able to afford rent worth all of the suicidal thoughts.
Previously I work in data management and I'm good at it. I'm not sure I like doing it but I certainly don't feel depressed when working. But after doing the additional CS work, even doing the data management work makes me cry. Now after being told next week I don't have to do CS work anymore, I'm not interested at all doing data management work and realize maybe I don't like data management afterall.
So I want to quit desperately and want to embark on a journey to find what I like. But I felt guilty even just thinking about quitting because previously the job was nice, my boss is nice, and the pay was great (it was a remote job in another country, I was paid slightly below minimum wage of that country but the amount is double the minimum wage of my country). But somehow I also feel demotivated to work. I cried a lot, and I lose focus. I make a lot of mistakes and I am not usually like this.
Should I quit?