Throwaway account for just in case
I’m mostly just ranting because this whole situation is still just seriously making me angry. I’ve worked for a company that at first was really great! They still are in many ways, and I do not like my great-grandboss. And the company is incredibly disorganized all around.
For background, I have two masters and have almost ten years teaching experience at the college level and teaching English as a foreign language. I’ve been working at my company for almost two years now, and I have great reviews from clients. I also have wonderful performance reviews from my managers and QA. I get along with everyone and try to keep up morale for the team, supporting the shift leads as needed even before I started acting as shift lead when the shift lead was out. I also joined a program to help with creating and streamlining our products.
I was up for a big promotion a while ago when there were several openings. I applied for one and made it clear I’d take any of the shifts. I got through the process only to be turned down. Why? Not enough leadership experience for one. Despite my detailing my teaching experience and how that translated over. But okay, they want to see it for this role more. I could do that and great-grandboss promised I’d be given opportunities to.
Then he asked me about my “rambling”, which was the other reason I lost the position. I don’t ramble; I have aphasia die to cognitive difficulties from chronic migraine. I explained this to him. Despite this, he asked me THREE TIMES if I was SURE I wasn’t just lacking confidence. What the—? One time I can call a misunderstanding. Three, no.
Since then I can’t get close to an interview at the company for an actual promotion. However, I’d been advocating with others for a new specialized team for over a year. They were finally putting it into the works and I got to help them plan it in my product meetings. I interviewed for a position on the team.
I didn’t get a place the first round. I can live with that with only a minimal amount of grumbling, considering. However, they did not tell me I didn’t make it until FIVE MINUTES before they announced to the company who did. No literally. The email showed up in my inbox and within 5 minutes later, the email announcing who did get it arrived. That just seemed like a slap in the face.
I just got placed on the team now though as they are growing it. The turnaround time has been incredibly fast and chaotic. I’ve had to tell my clients and move them to others. And then they’ve had to make arrangements for me to move over. I have heard nothing about anything except hearsay from my direct manager. Apparently they were considering making me an actual shift lead since I’ve been acting as one off and on the last few months. Now they aren’t going to. I was supposed to start my new position on Monday. Now I found out today, I’m to be doing a different position (one normally reserved for part-timers) because my new manager is out of office when I start. And I’m supposed to meet with great-grandboss for training, but he still hasn’t set up the meeting for that.
I do not feel secure. And I feel like I’m in a house of mirrors. Is this just me making too much out of this?