I have this impending sense of doom when it comes to every job I’m at. I’ve been in IT for almost 4 years at 23 years old, have an two degrees, multiple industry standard certifications and I still feel like i’m replaceable under the laws of nepotism. I’m not bragging. I’m trying to say that I work very hard to achieve more everyday but I always feel like I’m going to get laid off or fired.
How do I deal with this? I think about everything I say before saying it and even after I say something to someone in the office, I always think it’ll lead to getting fired even if it’s subconsciously decided by the other person. I have to pretend every single day because of the fear of being unliked. If i’m not kissing someone’s ass, I feel like I will be eliminated from the herd. I’ve been told that i’m one of the best employees my operation has ever had and I still feel like this.