I interviewed for a state job that pays a living wage. I am perfectly qualified with good references. I have not worked since lockdown and I am out of money. I did not get the job and I am feeling so worthless. Why do I have to beg for acceptance from strangers in order to feed my family? I am desperate for work now and will probably end up at a minimum wage restaurant job. I am too old for manual labor and need to start saving money for some semblance of retirement not constsing of homelessness. I'm just feeling so helpless and hopeless. And i know my self worth should not depend on my income, but here we are.