I have turned into basically an alcoholic, depressed and anxious mess because of my 9-5. It’s not even that bad of a job but I am absolutely filled with dread every minute of every day because of it. I eventually feel this way about every single job I’ve ever had. I feel my stomach twist up every time I get an outlook notification or hear my phone ring. I am so mentally exhausted that all i can do after 5 is lay on the couch and drink until I go to bed. I have to drink a glass of wine in the morning to hold off panic attacks. I have no relationships with anyone but my husband and mom outside of work and those are both suffering. I am not built for this. I wish it was possible to take a year off or something and just be able to be my own person. This just can’t be sustainable. I can’t keep going like this but my only other option is being homeless. How am I supposed to live like this? This is not how humans were meant to spend their days.