I am 2 years into my “career” after college and in the first job I got out of college (during peak covid summer). Now that I’m in deep, I am starting to find it very hard to cope with the “extras” that come with corporate life. I’m a chemist, so the work I’m usually assigned is already pretty intensive, but the people who are in charge drive me up the wall. I’m crying while working usually once a day. There’s gaslighting from my department manager, people who are in positions above me will sit on their butts all day and dismantle your character and talk shit and then pretend like they didn’t do it when you hear them. It’s ass backwards.
Most people at my rank are starting to put in their notices. The atmosphere has been charged ever since reviews about a month ago. Some ass who does nothing got a significant raise and promotion without hitting certain check marks to get there. My friend who has surpassed him in skill and work ethic got told she didn’t meet all the qualifications for the raise and promotion, EVEN THOUGH she has. The company’s behavior is pushing out my coworkers and friends who have been there for a while. I’m starting to get extremely anxious because their responsibilities are about to land on me like a mfing steamy hot bird poop on my head.
I know this is the anti work sub, but I’m looking for ways to cope because I don’t want to hate my life. Last night I decided for the time being, I should try to stick it out. It’s going against most of my moral beliefs surrounding work life (because in the end I will be promoted to a higher position because there is no one else to fill the role). But I get so angry, and tired, and don’t feel like myself. I’m just looking for simple suggestions on how to not be so angry so I can tolerate paying my bills. Any tips for a lost soul?
(Can’t believe I spent 4 years and tens of thousands of dollars in loans to get to this shithole)