Hello,
I just want to get this off my chest. I spend the last 6 years learning and studying to eventually become an Advanced Practice Nurse. No, I never dreamed of becoming a nurse, non of my relatives work in healthcare and I hate most people. I somehow ended up in this situation because I felt like a failure when I thought of giving up and changing careers. However, I paid with my mental health. I hate this job so much.
Just a few highlights of what happened in the last 6 months:
– being threatened after calling in sick
– cancel vacation one day before it would start, because my team leader noticed that there would be too many people on vacation at the same time (called works council for this one and suddenly I got my vacation)
– just hanging up the phone whenever I would say no if asked if I could come to work on my day off
– promising training for weeks when I started this job, then being left alone on the second day
Plus the usual staff shortage which led to me nursing 4 intensive care patients in one shift when only 2 are “recommended”.
I am now looking for a therapist because I'm depressed and feel like I fucked up. In the meantime I'm working hard to become self-employed to do something I love with all of my heart: Eventually open my own trading card store.