I have struggled with the concept of working for as long as I can remember. I also have crippling anxiety and OCD and upon reading other people's experiences here, wouldn't be surprised if I also have ADHD.
Don't get me wrong, I don't mind working and dare I say sometimes, having a task to distract me is a good thing.
But I don't get this whole 40 hours a week thing. So much of my time I'm wandering around the office, asking what I can help with. Stretching out tasks for longer than necessary to take up time. I learned they successfully worked from home for a year and a half before I came (I've been there two months) and were hybrid from Novemeber to March. I don't see why this couldn't be the case permanently. I live super close, which I know is an advantage many don't have. I come home on my lunch hour. But sometimes it is so hard to walk out the door a second time.
I am basically filled with existential dread all day. By the time I get home, make food etc my husband and I have maybe two hours to watch a show, but really we are both unable to relax as we know with each passing minute we are closer to doing it all over again.
I went from working with seniors in recreation to admin after the pandemic as I thought Admin is more likely to be able to be done from home than Recreation. I will make it my goal to get a WFH position but it isn't looking too promising in the current job market in my area
Just want you all to know I feel you on this miserable way of life and opening this subreddit throughout the day makes it easier to cope with.