My job is really not too bad, but I'm miserable in it. It's mostly that the environment is uncomfortable and that I'm not suited for this type of work. I can't stand being in a windowless room typing on a computer for 8 hours a day. I've been doing this for 1 year now and my eyes hurt, I've had to get glasses because it's damaging my vision, and my circadian rhythm is messed up and I don't sleep well at night and I've never had that problem before. The people I work with are snooty and uppity. They're very elitist and think they're above most people (academia). The pay is kind of shitty but it is technically livable. I end up with about $2,000 a month after tax, so it's enough to pay my rent and bills, but not enough to get ahead or ever be able to afford a down payment on a house.
It's not a bad job, but I'm miserable being trapped inside, slowly losing my eyesight, feeling alienated in a group of negative people, and feeling like I'm trading my health and happiness just to pay to live a mediocre life.
I'm saving as hard as I can with hopes to relocate to a better city (mine is super polluted and high crime, the murder rate is 3x the national average) and find a happier line of work. I'm keeping my eyes open and trying to think of creative, practical solutions. But in the meantime, I just really needed to vent. Glad this sub exists.
Stay strong out there everyone, wishing you lots of happiness and health.