I snapped and quit, now what.

I made good money but never saved it. I didn’t have a safety net saved. I just couldn’t take another day. Now I’m terrified, I have a huge car payment, and a mortgage to pay, and I can’t work another sales job I just can’t handle it. I sucked at school I can’t do that. I feel so bitter trying to apply anywhere, like I’m begging for someone to accept my soul. Because work is soul crushing. A part of me is proud I left, but the other part of me thinks maybe it was a fuck up…