I can't shake off the feeling of resentment I have when I'm working. Any advice would be appreciated.
I just found out this week that someone who started the same time + has the same amount of experience (I assume based off us having similar work ethics/”performance” but I don't know for sure) is being paid more than me AND that minimum wage has changed April 1st so I've been being paid below minimum wage since then.
I work at a vineyard and spend 3-4 days a week pruning vines. This of course is not great for my body (standing on hills, bending, pruning, pulling for 8 hours a day + I have chronic body pain).
My boss is great and let's me take as many mental health days as I need (which is good for me because I'm Autistic and burnout easily). She's made it clear that the (very successful) company we work for can't afford to pay me more than minimum wage and she's tried to apply me to programs so I can have a raise but it never works out.
I broke my elbow a few months while on company property (I was biking down a hill- because the washroom is a 20 minute walk away, and hit a rock). So then I was off work/without pay for 2 months. I then worked the Winter which occasionally had a warm space for me to eat my lunch + warm up my numb feet, but no always. I really struggle with working around people (internally, I don't vocalize my struggle) because I see the men who work there pee on the side of the road; one of them smokes at work and so I'm having trouble breathing when I work around him; and I just don't like when people talk to me.. not anyone's fault but the some of my co-workers try to get my attention a lot and I just want to work and not have to guess what they're saying (many of them speak a language I don't speak).
I haven't communicated a lot of these issues. I don't want to get anyone in trouble and then have them feel aggravated with me. I also have a feeling my boss wouldn't take it well if I complained. I like her but my impression of her is that she's very easy-going in a “good vibes only” sort of way.
I'm going to school in September hopefully.. so I could just suck it up until then. I'm nervous about changing jobs because I struggle with change and I can't afford to lose work. I'm wondering if I should just suck it up, bring up my issues, or find a higher paying job.. I can think for myself so I won't easily take anyone's advice, but I'd love to hear outside perspectives.